Can I Get a Witness?August 23, 2009
Must admit that it feels a little strange to be back behind the keyboard. Our home computer contracted a really nasty virus and was in the shop for nearly three weeks. All the while, I of course, had plenty to say – but nowhere to say it. Once I got it back? Nothin’. Not a thing to say. And, in fact, until this very moment, the real problem with that never occurred to me.
Like alot of people, truth be known, I probably use this forum – my blog/the internet – as a bit of a crutch. A hiding place. A cop-out. Being introverted and sometimes even, a bit shy, I feel a heckuva lot more comfortable professing my faith from behind this keyboard. And, while there’s absolutely nothing in the world wrong with sharing my life/experiences/concerns/the truth, etc. with others in that way, when you make a statement like the one I made in that first paragraph up there … maybe it’s time to take a step back, re-evaluate.
Of which statement do I speak? Allow me to quote myself. “All the while, I of course, had plenty to say – but nowhere to say it.”
Are you kidding me?
Nowhere to say it?
How about to the people around me? At work? At home? At church? Am I – not consciously, albeit – at a point where I am thinking more about how a particular thought the Lord lays on my heart would work better as a blog post than about how it could enrich the life of the person in the cube next to me? Or about how it may be exactly what the person I’m talking to at that very moment needs to hear? Am I letting opportunities to speak into others’ lives pass me by, because, well … I can just send it to ’em with a link and a photo later?
I catch myself flipping open my journal to get a particular thought or angle down before I lose it. So that I (I!) can reflect on it later. And, while that, at first glance, wouldn’t seem to be something awful, at second glance, maybe it is. After all, in that moment, I’m not thinking of anyone but myself, am I? I want to get it down, so that I – and only I – can reflect on it later … Maybe pray about it. But, what about the person with whom I’m talking? What if it’s something THEY could/should reflect on later? Am I robbing them of something they desperately needed to hear? Couldn’t our talking it through offer us both something significant? And, couldn’t I still, later, sit down at this keyboard – only with even MORE to say?
Not sure what this means for you, if anything … for me, it means I’ve got to stop seeing this platform as an escape, a crutch, a cop-out, an alternative.